Jaxon's Birth Day!

We woke up early the morning July 11, anxious to meet our little man!  Matt and I packed up everything we needed for the hospital and got ready to leave shortly before 6 a.m.  Thankfully my brother and his boyfriend had spent the night so Gavin wouldn't have to wake up early and come with us.  They were going to get him ready and give him breakfast and then the three of them would come down to the hospital later that morning after Jaxon had arrived.

Right before we left, I had Matt take one last photo of my pregnant belly.

Once we checked in, we were brought to a tiny room where I was prepped for surgery.  I knew that my usual doctor (and the one who had done my c-section with Gavin) was on vacation, so Jaxon would be delivered by a different doctor.  I met with him a few days earlier and felt confident in his ability to do a great c-section delivery.  They began by hooking the I.V. up to my hand (one of the WORST parts for me!) and of course, the lovely catheter.  Then the waiting began...

And just as the time was about to arrive, I got told that I was getting pushed back an hour due to an emergency c-section.  Darn it!  Another hour would pass before I would get to hold my sweet baby boy in my arms and smother him with kisses.  To say I was excited is a complete understatement.  I was so eager to jump on the operating table so I could hear the sound of my sweet baby's cry and see his perfect little face.

My sister, Kristy, and Dad waiting for Jaxon to arrive

When the time finally arrived, I was wheeled into the operating room and injected with the spinal block.  Now, I don't know if it's the fact that I was having painful contractions with Gavin, or the fact that it was an emergency and everything was very rushed, or even the fact that it was three years ago and I just don't remember, but the spinal block seemed much worse than the epidural I received with Gavin.  I felt the agonizing pinch as the needle went into my spine and it seemed to be a painstakingly slow process.  Once that was done, I immediately felt tingling numbness shoot through my legs.  They laid me down on the table and let Matt in so he could be by my side.

And...at 9:12 a.m., Jaxon Matthew Rogers was born!  7 lbs 7 oz, 19-3/4 inches long and another incredible blessing in our lives!  He was almost the same size as Gavin was at birth - 7 lbs 9 oz and 18-1/2 inches long.

When I heard his tiny cry, I cried tears of joy!  And when I finally got to see his adorable face, I had tears streaming down mine.  I immediately felt so much love for this tiny little perfect being.  I was officially a mommy to two precious boys.  Two boys who will forever have my heart and who I will forever love unconditionally.  I knew at that moment that my mom was right -- I felt tremendous love for my sweet little Jaxon!

Jaxon's first bath

Happy Grandparents and Auntie

Bonding time with Daddy

One eye open

Cuddling with Uncle

Mommy's sweet boy

First family photo

Me and my two sweet boys!!

March 16, 2009 - Gavin's Birth Day!

Well, since my last post, much has changed! Gavin ended up turning back around at the last minute, so our c-section was going to be cancelled. But, about 3 a.m. on Monday, March 16, I woke up and just then my water broke! And it wasn't just trickling out like you see in the movies-it was gushing out! Matt and I frantically tried to get a bag packed so we could rush to the hospital. I knew that once my water broke it was only a matter of time before Gavin arrived. We called our parents on the way. Once we were checked in and in a delivery room the time dragged on. I was so anxious for Gavin to arrive, but I just wouldn't dilate. They finally ended up doing an amniocentesis, which is where they add water back into me because I was losing so much. My contractions ended up feeling so strong that I was in an enormous amount of pain, so I was given an epidural. Well, the epidural only worked on the left side of my body, so I was still in tremendous pain on the right. The epidural was eventually removed and another one was put in, which finally worked and I felt such relief. I was finally able to rest without feeling the contractions.

Well, finally about 7 p.m. that night, Gavin still hadn't arrived and my doctor decided that I had been in labor so long that he wanted to perform an emergency c-section. I was anxious, excited, and nervous all at the same time and I know Matt felt the same way. I was finally wheeled into the surgery room around 8 p.m. and by 8:56 p.m. Gavin was here! I could hear his little cry and tears filled my eyes. I was stuck behind a sheet so I could see him and I was just dying inside because I wanted to jump off the table and hold my baby in my arms! Matt got to go cut the cord and see him for the first time and he made sure to take a picture. Then, while they cleaned him up, Matt brought the camera over to me so I could see the picture. I cried again when I saw how beautiful he was! He looked absolutely perfect. When I finally got to see him, it was such an amazing feeling. I couldn't wait to hold him in my arms.


I had to be stitched up and then wheeled to a recovery room. I was so anxious to be with my baby that every minute in the cold, sterile recovery room was torture. I kept asking when I could see my baby, but they wouldn't let me leave until I could move my legs. My left leg was completely numb due to the two epidurals. I knew that it wouldn't move for awhile, so I mustered up every bit of strength in my body to move my right leg and show the nurses that I was okay. Luckily for me, they didn't ask me to move my left leg, too!

So I was finally wheeled into the postpartum room where I was joined by Matt and Gavin! I was so happy to finally hold him in my arms! It was so amazing! I marveled at how beautiful and precious he was. I wanted to spend a few moments alone with him before we had visitors, but our poor families had been waiting for almost 24 hours to see him, so many of them had to go home before they could see him. But I will always treasure those first few moments with him. And as I looked into his sweet eyes, I knew that life was about to change forever...

Matt with Gavin

Me with Gavin (looking awful and exhausted)